I know this is only week 3 – but I am already comfortable going to these sessions. It sounds crazy, but I actually look forward to these sessions now! I think it is because I know that the drugs, I am receiving are going to destroy the tumor which is trying to kill me! These liquids are the things that are going to make me live a long life – so yeah – I am super happy to be here getting treatment!
This week I just had the Paclitaxel so again it wasn’t too long a session! I walked into the hospital today, so I was nice and warm so the cannula went straight in again after I was weighed (97kg)! Whoop Whoop! While having treatment, I was speaking to a lady who was explaining how she had lost too much weight (2 stone) during her chemo, and therefore she had to stop treatment to get her health back up. I do not have this problem! In 3 weeks, I had put on 5kg, and I continued to eat! I didn’t have any of the side effects people had mentioned, such as metallic taste, or not wanting to eat, I wanted to eat everything and anything.
Last week I ate a cheese and onion sandwich, with a granola yogurt. I don’t mean separately, I mean together, along with a Mars milkshake and a pasta salad! I can only imagine this is what pregnancy cravings feel like! Right now, though, I don’t care! I am going to eat and eat if it means I don’t have to stop chemotherapy!
Chemo went really quickly today, and I felt absolutely fine, so I decided to walk into town! I treated myself to a Costa and a Chocolate Twist (not that I needed it), while just people-watching in the high street. I love doing that, just watching people going about their business. I also like to make up stories about the people. i.e. – if I see a man in a rush with a bunch of flowers, he has done something wrong and is going to apologise! I know that is completely stereotypical, but it’s fun and harmless!! I got a bit of backlash from people explaining that I shouldn’t be going out and putting myself at risk of Covid, but I am not going to spend every second of my day inside my house waiting for my mental health to deteriorate. I am keeping myself as safe as I possibly can, not putting myself at undue risk, and just trying to continue with a normal life.
